There are times in your life when you feel deep within your heart that something feels right. It is a feeling deep within you that feeds your heart with happiness. It is a feeling that you believe in, no matter how difficult, no matter how demanding something may be, you know that it is right. You know you have to follow your heart.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Why Adopt??

Why adopt??? I know many people may still be questioning me on this, wondering why? Wondering how? I know that there are some people out there that disagree with this, and I am aware of this because silence speaks louder than words. 

There are many reasons I want to adopt Vika. Some of which are very personal. What I can share with you, is that for a long time I have wanted another child. I have kept this dream to myself for so long because I was never quite sure how having another child would ever come to me. I wasn't sure if I would have a biological child of my own. If I would foster, or be an adoptive parent. Over the last few years I have admired people that have been pregnant,  or that have more than one child. Knowing it is something I had wanted for a long time. 

I don't like to say I found Vika. I  truly feel as though she found me. I thought this was a silly thought until I spoke with another Mom who is adopting a young girl with Downs from the same orphanage who  has become a good friend thus far.  She said the same thing to me. She said she was never planning on adopting a little girl with downs. But there was something greater than her that has led her to this decision in her life. That is much of how I feel. I feel a connection to her, and I am ready to provide and love her.  I am excited to have her in my life.

Today there were over 100 orphans (very young) with Down Syndrome posted into one region in Russia. How can this be??? How can one region support and take care of all of these children? The answer is they CAN'T. As much as these people care for these kids. They are only one person, with two hands. The answer is some of these children will not be able to thrive. They will die, and never to be thought of again. It is a horrible reality that few people are willing to recognize, and even fewer willing to act. Someone said to me today that I should be proud of myself. That anyone can dream and hope for something. But it takes a even stronger person to go after that dream. What he said is so true. Something I hadn't realized myself until he said that to me. So why am I adopting?? I want to make a difference. I know I can't change the world. But I can change one girls world. I love these children. If I could save them all, I would. The one thing that stands between so many parents adopting these special kids.. it is money. 

This is of course a very short answer... it is one that it evolving over time. The more I think about the love I have for her. The more I know it is true. I will do all I can to bring her home. I will not stop til I have her home.

1 comment:

  1. YES!!! Please go and bring her home!! I LOVE her SO very much, and I couldn't be happier for you to be bringing her home and giving her a mother and a big brother. A few weeks ago I watched your slide show and wished that I could stop sobbing so that I could write a comment for you then. Watching the photos of you and your son, your Dad, and others, I could picture your little girl perfectly in our family. It is exactly where she is meant to be. Please know that I am here, reading EVERYTHING that you are willing to share with us about this journey you are on and this VERY special little girl. For all those who don't understand, don't waste to much time trying to explain. If they are not at your side asking questions, trying to get it, they never will. I've had a few of these as well. Stay strong, and know you have MANY standing behind you in support:-)