This New Year

This New Year...

 

It is going to be a start to a journey that began just 4 months ago...

 

It began one afternoon. I was looking at pictures of hundreds of children with Down Syndrome whom were given up at birth and have since spent their entire lives in a orphange. Children who have never known the true love of a family. I saw Vika's picture and loved her smile immediately. There are hundrends of children out there that need homes; all beautiful and unique in their own way. But my heart kept getting drawn back to Vika. I thought about her for many, many days. I kept looking at her picture. I then found myself thinking of her at all random times of the day... the thinking of her turned into worry, caring and concern. Then one day it dawned on me, I care for her, worry for her, and love her like I do Nicholas. In my heart, she had become my daughter.

 

This decsion to adopt her did not come as lightly as some may think. I was torn with this as the truth of the matter is... I know I have had a good life. A very comfotable and easy life. I have a great job that I love. Nicholas and I have had a routine, and a way of life for the last 15 years. Who am I to just bring this little girl into my home, and change it around, and turn it upside down, and literally start all over.

 

What If.... this is question that I have been asked over and over...

 

all these questions have been propsed, and I do not have all the answers to them...

 

While I do not have the answers to all of these questions, the truth is. I have a lot of faith and trust in something greater than me. For this same faith and trust is something that I truly feel brought her to me.

I imagine (I know) there will be a tremendous amounts of challenges, and hurdles to overcome. I know there will be days that will test me, and teach me and try to break me down. But, I also know there will more days that will show me new love, lessons in life, and renewal.

 

Because the truth of it is... I need her, just as much as she needs me.